the vampire journals

caroline
I have been alone for over 100 years now it is getting easier and spending time among them is helping me to deal with the thirst. I keep to myself but there are times when I have to interact which is hard when they r so close, the winter is easier as they r all wrapped up but the now it is coming into summer their skin their throats are exposed and the sound and smell of their warm blood pumping through their veins is almost unbearable. Forever trapped in the body of a 28 yr old never growing older, at first I thought it was great to be forever young and beautiful. Then the horrors started my first meal my first kill, that memory will be with me every day/

It was 1809 A young man walking home alone down a deserted street, dressed in his military best he was dashing and very much the gentleman. He saw me sitting on a park bench and offered to escort me home saying “no lady should be unaccompanied at this time of night” he offered his arm which I took and we walked down the street. I could see he was taken aback by my beauty and my angelic voice, but I was so hungry I found it hard to concentrate. I told him there was a short cut through a back ally and he didn’t even see the danger coming, and why should he. He was a military soldier what did he have to fear from a woman. I slipped my arm from his and stopped, he turned and asked if I was alright and then I could hold back no longer. My teeth cut through his throat like a hot knife through butter. He struggled only slightly and soon he went limp, drinking in deep his hot wet blood trickled down my throat and it felt so good, when I was finished I let his lifeless body slump to the cold ground and I backed away. I was not alone any more as my maker had joined me from her watching place pleased with my kill. I could feel him in me his essence his innocence he was hero and saved lives and here I was a monster who took his.

I struggled for the next hundred years with what I was, eventually I left my makers company and the others who had joined, starting my own life wandering alone. It was in the few years following my separation that I stumbled across others of my kind but they were different they mixed with the humans and did not feed on them instead they fed from animals. Learning as much as I could from them I found my path my place in this new world, I didn’t have to be the monster I feared I was.



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caroline


I seem to be the only one of my kind who travels alone the others are all paired up, yet I have not come across another that holds any interest to me. I don’t really mind as I like being alone it is easier to keep from being discovered. Every fifty years we who feed on animals gather to trade stories and I do look forward to it, especially the last time. I had no idea how things would change for us.
One of the others had come across some ancient amulets she had put one on and had accidentally discovered what they do. Her name is Sapphire and she had been changed 536 years ago when she was 25 years old she too struggled with what we are and went through a rebellious dark period but that’s a story for another time. After putting on the amulet she was hiding from the day waiting for night when a bird flew through the window and moved the dark black out drape allowing the light to shine through. It bounced off her skin and didn’t burn her she was fine so she decided to test her theory and walked outside. At our last meeting she had brought all of them with her and had handed them out to us and we waited for the sunrise. Some of our group were not sure so they waited in the shade of the trees and watched. The sun was rising and creeping closer to us the ground bore the no so invisible line between light and dark and there she stood on the side of light. I took the first step across the line and passed from night to day, the warmth of the sun against my skin was something I had not felt in such a long time it felt new to me. The others stepped forward too and our new way of life began.

It has now been almost 100 years in lightness and I still wonder at how it all works. The opportunities that have been opened up to me are endless. Now by day I study learning as much as I can I quite enjoy college now if I could do all this without the need for the humans to be around it would be much better. At night I like to go to clubs and dance the music is much better than in the past it is better to dance to. I have been having very strange feelings these past few months and they are getting stronger, im not sure what it is but something is coming and I feel like I have no choice but to accept it. It feels like a pull from within me but I do not know what im being pulled towards. I have to remember to pretend to be human, so I go inside when it rains I fidget and I cough every now and then as if to clear my throat. I don’t need to do any of this but it helps to keep us hidden for there are those who hunt us I came close once and was almost killed, I thought the girl was helpless and sitting in the dark with a hurt knee I could smell the blood. Only when I got too close did she turn her head to me and smiled. She jumped up and had a steak in her hand it was a close fight and both sides were injured. She was my last human kill.
The sun is out so im going to finish this entry of later and enjoy the light on my skin.



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caroline

Well I now know what I was being pulled towards or should I say who. I was sitting on a bench in the outside eating area at college and then I caught his smell. It was musky but saw dusty too, he appealed to me so much. Then when I looked up and saw him my heart stopped (if I had a beating heart) there was something there I could not explain and I wanted to know more. He was staring at me too but was distracted by the vile human girl trying to get his attention. She had a squeaky voice that hurt my sensitive hearing she was what I imagined pink bubble gum would be like if it were human. I took the advantage and I quickly but still at human speed left and watched him from a distance. His brown hair was slightly spiky and his pale blue almost grey eyes were beautiful when he spoke his voice sounded like music to me. How I wish I had the talent of Cassandra she could read the minds of human and vampires, I wanted to know him his every thought his every move. It was later that day when he bumped into me in the hallway that I realised who is was. The knowledge scared me and made me want to run but at the same time it made me happy and I wanted to stay by his side every second. He was my other half the connection was instant the moment we touched. His name is luca.