the vampire journals

caroline

I tried to keep away from him after all he is human and very fragile but the pull towards him is very strong. So last night I went out to the club and I danced all night never having to stop to use the bathroom or to get a drink well a human drink anyway. I was finally able to think straight but it didn’t last, I turned around and he was there watching me smiling. Oh his smile. And his eyes sparkle when he smiles too. I don’t feel the need to drink from him but his blood calls to me in a way I have never felt before. I was mesmerised by him so much so I had not noticed him move closer until he spoke and asked to dance with me. I couldn’t resist and we were dancing our bodies pressing closer together. It became too much for me and I took off leaving him standing in between other dancers wondering where I was. I cant be sure but I think I moved too fast. I watched from the roof tops as he walked home alone but every now and then he stopped and looked around. He was living in the dorms one place I didn’t go, I have no need to go there. That is till now. I stayed and watched until the light in his window went out, his window that was open. The temptation was too much and I had to peek. Climbing the wall was easy for me and I was able to move without a sound, even the window posed no hassle for me. Even though it was dark in his room I could see without a problem my vampire eyes had no difficulty with the dark in fact they have no difficulty with most things. Here in his room his scent was over powering it was on everything. He lay on his bed with the blanket just covering up to his waist and his bare chest was exposed so was his throat but the urge I had was not to kill him. This urge was something I have never felt in over 200 years. He stirred and I thought I was busted but he did not wake. I watched him for the rest of the night but the sun was starting to rise and it would be harder to keep out of sight climbing out of the fourth storey window., so I left knowing I would not be able to stay away from him again.


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caroline

Luca spoke to me today and we had a very long talk. He too feels the pull towards me though he isn’t sure what it is. I havnt told him what I am instead we talked of the courses we are taking and of the music we like and of family well I left out the fact that mine had died hundreds of yrs ago and left him thinking they died recently. His family too had died when he was a child he is alone just as I am. After our talk I was feeling on top of the world he even asked me out to dinner but I managed to rearrange things to a movie as I don’t think he would like what I would order, he he he he . So tomorrow we are going to watch some movie who would of thought me on a date, bet he never thought he would be on a date with a vampire. If only treacle and Nosferatu knew about this it would not be allowed they would insist on killing him or turning him to join them. My good friends sapphire and Cassandra would be supportive but they are not around right now. Well I will let you know how things go tomorrow, but for now it is dark and I want to go and watch him.


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caroline

That was defiantly interesting and pivotal luca met me at my house and we walked to the theatre he let me choose the movie but I wasn’t sure what was what so I picked which one that every one seemed to be going to. He bought popcorn and juice, luca is very sweet and a gentleman. Things were going well then the lights turned off and the feeling of the pull got stronger I wanted to touch him to feel him touch me and I jumped when his warm hand took hold of my cooler hand he didn’t even flinch at my cold skin. We sat like that for the whole movie not that I was paying attention I was too busy listening to his heart as it raced thump thump thump thump. The lights came back on and I realised it was the end of the movie, we walked outside and the cool air was a relief I hadn’t knew I needed. Being in the close room filled with humans my throat now burned and the fresh air helped. Luca suggested we walk back to mine through the park he never let go of my hand and I didn’t mind. We talked and talked he admitted he too was not paying attention to the movie and we both laughed at that, it feels so easy to be with him. What I wasn’t prepared for was the kiss. We were stood at my front door I didn’t want to invite him in as there were clues to what I am all over so I would have to hide them all before he could be allowed in. I turned to face him to say goodnight and then his hand was on the side of my face and his lips pressed against mine, they were so soft and warm I could feel the blood coursing through them. When he was finished he said goodnight and then he left. I was dazed away in my own little world as I watched him walk back to campus. He turned the corner and was gone. that’s when I got the feeling that something, someone was coming and soon, it wouldn’t be good.


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caroline

It has been a few days since my last entry but so much has happened, the feeling that someone was coming was right on the mark. A young vampire lola came to town, she was changed only 18 years ago at the age of 30. Lola feeds on humans and when she searched me out she caught the scent of luca and she wanted him not any human she wanted my luca, my beautiful warm kind luca. I tried to get her to leave town but I lost track of her, I knew where she had gone so I raced to find them. Picking up luca’s scent I traced them to an abandoned warehouse. Luca now knows what I am thanks to lola. She was about to feed on him when I found them. We fought in front of luca and I had to kill her I had no other choice she would not give up. Once it was over I tried to explain to luca that I was not like her and I would never hurt him. He went home and has not spoken to me since. It has now been 24 hours since I heard his voice and I feel like it is killing me inside. How could I of brought this on him what was I thinking.


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luca
I did not write in last night as I was ummm kind of kidnapped. Ugh what am I saying I was almost killed eaten. There was this woman older but beautiful she knocked on my door and then everything went hazy. The next thing I knew I was in the old warehouse on the edge of town. The woman called herself lola but she wasn’t a woman well she was but she wasn’t human. She had red eyes and she moved so fast I could only see a blur. She growled and sniffed at me and that’s when I saw the teeth. I could not believe what I was seeing I still cant. My heart was pounding so fast I could hear it in my ears. The woman lola spoke and she told me things I didn’t want to hear. She told me that caroline was like her a vampire and it all clicked. The club how she was there one minute and gone the next her cold skin. Then lola was right in front of me with a hungry look on her face. She went to bite me. I cant believe im writing this it is like something out of a sci-fi movie. Then lola was gone she was across the room and caroline was fighting with her and I knew it was true she too was a vampire. I watched as caroline ripped lola to bits and killed her. When it was over caroline approached me carefully but I still backed away. She was trying to tell me that she wasn’t like lola but she was a vampire too. I had to get out of there but she kept telling me she didn’t kil humans and she would never hurt me. I know it’s the truth but I needed time to think so I left and came home. There is so much to think about, where do I start.




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caroline

Today was very hard, I saw luca in the campus seating area outside and he kept his distance I didn’t push him he needs time to think I understand that. If only Cassandra was here I cant stand not knowing what he is thinking . I hope he forgives me I want to be around him but I also hope he doesn’t and he stays away from my world. It is too dangerous for humans to be involved but I cant stand the thought of luca not being in my life. He stood and watched me for a wile but I could not figure out the expression on his face. Later on I decided to walk home the human way to give me time to think and when I reached the gat to my house he was there sitting on the porch. I sat down next to him and he didn’t move away from me which was a start. We talked for hours he had so many questions some of which I found hard to answer but not because they were hard to explain but I was afraid of his reaction. He took it all well I think when he left he told me he would talk to me tomorrow so that’s good. I watched him for a while but I kept my distance he is becoming aware of my presence he seems to know when im around now. Cant wait to find out what happens tomorrow.




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luca

I found it hard to concentrate today so many questions going through my mind. I saw her today sitting in the sun the light glowing on her hair and skin, I was reminded of a song I heard some time ago what was it called. Ahh that’s it beauty has her way by mummy calls. She could have anything she wants she is beautiful inside and out and she wants me but what I don’t know is does she want me or my blood. The strange thing is I don’t really care as long as its me she wants. I decided I needed to talk to her so I went to her house and waited for her. We talked for hours and I asked like a million questions. She answered them as best she could I got the feeling she was trying not to scare me though. The things I found out were she has killed humans but not for centuries, she lives on the blood of animals as do some other vampires, that word still sounds odd. She told me about the amulet that allows her to go out in the sun, I was very curious about that one. She has powers too speed strength and she can feel the future kind of like premonitions but she doesn’t see it just feel that something is going to happen. After we talked I need to let it all settle in so I left and now im sitting in my dorm trying to figure out what I am going to do next as far as I know I have two options, I cud stay away from her and move on with normal human life knowing they are out there. Or. I could accept vampires and try to make things work with her but how can a relationship with a vampire and a human turn out. Will one day be too much for her and I will be killed or … no I cant think of that I cant become a vampire what am I thinking, ugh ok that’s it for the night I need to make my decision tomorrow.


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caroline

It was a surprise when they showed up they are the only vampires I can not feel coming for some reason. My maker treacle and her companion Nosferatu, arrived last night. Im not glad they are here, they are the darkest of our kind and want only domination over the humans and of our own kind. Theyr are building an army and want me to join. I want to get them to leave before the killing starts or before they meet luca. I have to keep him safe then when it is all clear I have to leave so he is not in danger any more. I love him too much to do this to him. It was all going well the day had begun so they were stuck inside till night and I wasn’t going to let them know about the amulet they can not get hold of something so powerful. Then there was a knock at the door it was luca. I tried to get him to leave and I was harsh but then Nosferatu caught his scent and he was hungry. Im so glad that luca was able to get out of the shade of the porch and into the sunlight fast enough but Nosferatu was not pleased he ended up with no food and a burnt hand he he he.
I told luca to go home and lock himself in I would try to get to him as soon as I could. The day was passing too fast and treacle was still trying to get me to join them to take my rightful place and see humans for what they are… food. It is not the life for me but I also wonder if my living in the human world is the right life too. Night came and they left so I went to lucas and kept watch over him incase Nosferatu decided to kill him but they did not show. Luca looked very scared and vulnerable I have to leave this is not right. Maybe I should join treacle and accept what I really am, I cant live in the human world and not put them at risk and I cant live in the vampire world and not resist my natural nature. I feel torn like im going to split in two huh that would be a great idea part of me for luca and part to be what I am. that’s it my mind is made up I will leave tonight, I can not say goodbye to him it will be too hard I have to just vanish for his own good, he will adjust change is easier for humans but for us immortals once something changes in us it is for ever and he will always be in my mind and heart so to speak. The others are paired up and happy I will ask Nosferatu to do his mind trick on me and make me forget so it will be easier to return.


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luca

Last night my dream changed and it helped to make up my mind im scared but also feel like this is the right decision. I went to tell caroline but when I got there she was not her normal self she tried to get rid of me as fast as she could and I was about to turn around and leave when I heard voices from inside her house. Then a man came to the door he was tall and well built his almost white hair loose down his shoulders. Then I noticed the eyes they were red just as lolas has been when she was hungry.

He reached for me and I pulled back stepping off the porch and into the daylight. The mans hand began to burn and he cried out in pain and retreated back into the house. I heard caroline say his name Nosferatu. She looked at me then told me to go home and don’t leave my dorm. I didn’t have to be told twice so I ran home and locked myself in. from what caroline told me only those who feed on animals have the amulets and the others who kill humans have to stay out of the sunlight. Do I really want to be involved in this life, do I have a choice now, it seems like it is out of my hands now. Im sitting here alone I cant sleep and the darkness is feeling very crowded now im jumping at every noise waiting for what will come.



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luca

I went to her house today and she was gone she wasn’t in class either I cant find caroline anywhere. No one has seen her. I hope that vile thing didn’t do anything to her, I couldn’t stand it if she was gone from my life. I need her I love her. I know it is stupid to feel this strong so fast but I cant deny how I feel, I don’t care that she is a vampire she is good and she wants me and not in a food way. We can find a way for this to work im sure of it. I just have to find her, maybe she is staying hidden for now giving me space to think. But my mind is made up I want her only her forever.



Im sitting on her porch waiting for her as I write this she has to come home sooner or later and I will be here waiting.